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Lara McCormick: Coming From A Place of Not Knowing

I became a designer initially to make things look good; I enjoy the process of creation. As I get older, my take on design has shifted. I see the power it has to make a difference. I design responsibly and I encourage others to do the same. I'm involved in projects I believe in and no longer have the time nor the energy for projects that don’t speak to me or make me think.

When I joined Empax in June I knew next to nothing about stem cell research. What I did know was that I supported the cause but that was mostly because Bush opposed it. But if I have I have to be honest, if anyone had asked me why I was in favor of stem cell research back then, I wouldn't have been able to offer any substantive reasons.

Now, being a part of the Ninth Floor Project, I am continuously learning about this issue and the politics that surround it. The more I know the more passionate about the topic I become, the more I want to tell other people about it. I now have a need to explain the details and how it benefits humanity on so many levels.

I was honored with the task of coming up with Ninth Floor Project logo. Looking to the elevator button for inspiration, I used Braille- the language of disability- and the number '9', the floor on which we are located to create our identity. For those of you who have ever created a public space, you’ll know how remarkable it is to watch a space spring to life, to hear dialogue begin and find strangers meeting and engaging in a place that you helped create.

This project has had a lot of personal and professional significance for me. I have friends who are ill and who would benefit from the science. I also see a lot of youth around me who seem to understand the need for a change in policy but who either lack the information to rally behind the cause or the appropriate leadership and organization. In fact while I was working on the logo, I was standing in line for popcorn at a movie and I noticed that the concessions guy was wearing a superman tag - http://www.supermantag.org/ (all proceeds from the sale of the tags support the foundation's work in finding treatments and cures for paralysis). When I ordered my popcorn, I asked him if he was a supporter of stem cell research. “I haven’t really had a chance to research the whole stem cell thing,” he said, “but I love Christopher Reeves and I was a volunteer at an event for the foundation where we passed out the tags.'” I thought to myself, here was a guy, mid-twenties, involved in a cause without knowing anything about the heart of the issue.

I feel like this is the true for a lot of causes and for many people, especially our youth. Many people ‘feel’ that stem cell research is a good thing but are unable to explain why or don’t feel inspired to learn more. This lack of knowledge has created a serious need for a hub of information on the issue-- and maybe because I’m a designer (but I suspect not) -- a symbol seems like the right place to start.


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Nancy Whalen:

When Lara told me she was contributing her time and energy to “The Ninth Floor” project, a branding campaign to created public awareness of the benefits of stem cell research through a universal symbol, I felt that it couldn’t be any timelier. This issue had indirectly touched my life in the most unexpected way I couldn’t even begin to imagine.

On a recent visit in May to my doctor’s office for my annual physical, I had some blood drawn for a CBC, or Complete Blood Count, mainly to check cholesterol levels. I left feeling confident that the test results would prove, yet again, that I was in good health. Three weeks later, I received my blood test results which indicated something entirely different.

I returned to the doctor for another blood test, this time with “differentials," a detailed breakdown of cells and platelets. My white cell count was dangerously low, which left me with essentially no immune system to fight off even a common cold. I had no symptoms of anything except a rising anxiety level over this new information about my immune system. The next day, I came home from work to a message on my voicemail from my doctor. She informed me that my blood test showed some signs for concern and she was referring me immediately to a specialist at the Hematology/Oncology center for further tests.

I’m a relatively healthy person. I rarely get colds, even when everyone around me is bed ridden for a week with the flu. I don’t even get headaches. My health is not something I really spend much time thinking about because it's typically in working order. I was starting to get just a little freaked out by this appointment with a clinic that deals essentially with treating people for cancer.

I did the next logical thing I could think of; I Googled “low white cell counts.” The information that came back contained numerous links to medical websites using terms such as “neutrophils, lymphocytes, and monocytes.” As I began to read, I realized that these were terms relating to the diagnosis for Leukemia, Lymphoma or Hodgekins.

My time spent in the Hematology/Oncology clinic was life changing. I had 5 vials of blood drawn and filled out a 4 page questionnaire containing every bodily function imaginable, some things that you wouldn’t willingly share with your spouse, never mind a stranger.

While waiting for my test results and consultation, I eventually became aware of the other patients there with whom I was waiting. They varied, not unlike a group of strangers on a crowded subway car or a grocery store check out line, except they all shared one thing – the cancer that was destroying their organs, bones or blood.

For the next three hours, I was one of "them." Age and race varied, but what was most apparent was that they were thin and moved slowly from exhaustion. Some wore hats to cover their hair loss and others wore surgical masks to protect themselves from germs. I was overwhelmed with compassion and sadness, for them, and now for my own health. I could not quiet my mind from thinking, “what if I was suddenly one of them, desperately fighting to be healthy again?” Death, a common fear we all experience remotely until we are faced with something such as cancer, which makes it much more personal and immediate in a way that is simply unimaginable otherwise.

I returned home later that night to another message on my voicemail from my doctor. She had left her pager number for me to call - not a promising sign of the blood tests taken earlier at the clinic. She returned my page, informing me that I had some irregular cells and they were going to need to do a bone marrow biopsy as soon as next week. I can't begin to describe the thoughts and emotions I had to contend with during the days leading up to the procedure.

The following Friday morning, I returned for a bone marrow biopsy, apparently the only way to know for certain if my cells were a result of a cancer related dysfunction. I was beyond terrified. I’d never been through anything more than a couple of hours of dental work for a crown. After I was checked in and assigned my white plastic wrist band, the nurse hooked me up to an IV, as I graciously welcomed the blissful state that a shot liquid Demerol provided me. The doctor told me that this is going to hurt and that there is really no way to get around it. Great. I remember thinking how surreal and absurd my situation seemed as they put on a Billie Holiday cd to "relax me" and then inserted what looked like an ice pick into my hip to remove a piece of bone for the biopsy. As I took slow, deep breaths, I remember thinking how certain I was that my alarm clock would go off at that moment, waking me up in the safety of my bed, relieved that this was one hell of a strange dream. And perhaps my denial that this was reality is how I got through such a God awful procedure.

As of today, I have been cleared of any cancer related illness. I am relieved and grateful that for now, I am still healthy, something I will never take for granted again. What I discovered while going through this experience is how critical it is to make people more aware of the potential of what stem cells can do if the scientific and medical research is unrestricted and fully supported by federal funds. Stem cells can be used to generate healthy bone marrow for transplants in people with Leukemia; one of the numerous ways that scientists are learning how stem cells can improve the quality of life as well as sustain it.

My experience is just one of the thousands occurring each day, many leading up to a confirmed diagnosis of cancer. Stem cells can greatly contribute to saving the lives of countless cancer patients. We all have an immediate reason to support creating massive awareness of the tremendous benefits of stem cell research – your own life might depend on it one day.


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